||I search for identity|
In a swirling mist of colors
Torn b/w who I should be
and who I desire to become.
Surrounded by faces
All calling out in my direction
but all with a single tongue.
||Should I take their future?|
Or should I mold my own?
Shape myself into who I desire to be
And not who others have created?
||After awhile you learn the subtle difference b/w |
holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn,
That love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security
And you begin to learn,
That kisses are contracts
and presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of a women, not the grief of a child.
And you learn,
To build all your roads on today
because tomorrows ground is too uncertain
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After awhile you learn,
That even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure,
You really are strong,
You really do have worth,
And you learn...
And you learn..
With every goodbye - you learn...
||In my dreams|
I've seen how life can really be
I've planned and schemed and tried to make them a reality
I think I failed
But my life isnt over yet.
||I LOVE YOU JUSTIN!|
||I never really knew you|
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
And I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know!
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know exactly what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you each and everyday
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I LOVE YOU!
||Allow you to Dream|
||Intoxicated imagery-A place deeper than common thought|
Where regardless how far you fall, reassured you will be caught
A place where confusions a rarity
Time stands still
Laughters a part of charity.
Give into it by will
Happiness the only sickness
Pain cease to exist
People lend out a hand
Rather than ball it into a fist.
Friends will be friends
When a favors done
Not expecting anything back.
Society's out to help you
Not throw your head off track.
Where black is a beauty
Nothing goes unjustified
No waiting for what could be
And no memory of the last person who cried.
Yet you can't rely on imagination
Only causes false hope.
Life has its times
You just have to cope.
Endure the worst.
Allow you to cry.
Spend time alone
To think back
Ask yourself why.
Now every person has a crisis
Moments they feel deprived
And at the end of the day
You're just happy you survived
So every now and then escape-
To a place deeper than common thought
Where regardless how far you fall, reassured you'll be caught
Let yourself go.
You know where I mean.
Let yourself go.
Allow you to dream...
||I think of you and it brings a smile to my face|
I imagine holding you in a sweet embrace
Our faces get closer as I draw you near
I'm holding you tight, I have nothing to fear
I can feel your heart beating at a faster pace
Our bodies get hotter, our hearts start to race
Our lips locked together in maddening bliss
We stop for a moment - then continue to kiss!
||My Challenge, Me|
||I have something to prove|
To everyone, including myself
I live for my acheivements,
I love the challenge each one brings me.
All the guts and will each challenge brings out in me
Leaves me wanting more.
A challenge is the one thing I can never get enough of
The one thing in life that will keep my satisfied.
||Sitting out there on my porch tonight|
Time for me to clear my head
The dishes are all done
And everyone is in bed
The silence of the night
One of my favorite times
Just for me to relax
And my nerves to unwind.
Feeling the night breeze
Blowing in my hair
Sitting on the porch
This sweet tranquility so rare.
And it is only me..
No one else around.
Welcoming and enjoying
This peace that I have found.
My worries of the day
Swept away for awhile
Just me and my thoughts
and a little smile!
Thunder in the distance
Rain is coming soon.
But there is nothing tonight
That will stop my shining moon!
Everything is just right tonight
Nothing seems out of place
As I hear the echo of laughter
And remember the smiles on my friends' face.
Those memories alone
Are enough to be so thankful for
In my heart, to always stay.
That is one thing in my life
That I know is so right
That keeps me going
And holding on to the light.
Rain begins to fall
This time, there is no tears to mix in
No worries, no pain
Only love and pease I find within.
Sour searching on this night
Has been so good for me
Something I have needed
A feeling of being free.
Peaceful sleep I will find now
But I will be back to this place...
Sweet tranquility... All mine...
||Singing in the Shower|
||There are many things I'd like to tell you|
But this is just me talking to myself
My thoughts are blown in the wind
Completely incoherent to you
But all full of meaning to me
How could you possibly understand?
People come and go in my life
To share a part of it with me
Then they go again leaving me with more,
enriched by their presence.
But a little sadder-
For not having known them a little longer.
But I'm just singing in the shower
Everyone listens but noone hears.